I don’t know why I was so nervous about school? It’s really nice. I don’t know alegra 2 though. It’s a little too fast pace for me. But I’ll live. You know what I’m really excited for??? Alice in Wondrland!!! Gahh! It looks so good! And with Tim Burton as the director I’m sure to be pleased. I would give everyhting I had to live in wonderland. It just looks so amazing. I wish our world was like that. Always something amazing happening. Some thing pretty to look at in every corner. But no. If your looming at the wrong corner here your either looking at a whore or a dike waiting for a ride from her girlfriend. And that’s not as pretty as wonderland is it? Hmm. Didn’t think so.

So I’m freakin’ out right now. Tomorrow is a new semester! Which for my school means a complete new schedule. So new teachers, new classrooms, new classmates. The part I worry about the most is lunch.. It’s always been my worst nightmare to eat by myself at lunch. For some reason eating by myself is the the scariest thing ever. It’s the loneliest loney thing to do. And I hate being lonely. Last semesters lunch was fun because we got to kick out people. And they cried and I thought it was funny. =P what if I’m that kid this semester that gets kicked out of the table..? Ahhhh!! I know a very good amount of people so I should be good. But still. I don’t know who the fuck has my lunch? I don’t even know which one I have? At my school there are 4 dufferent luch times. And if i get the loser lunch then I might die. Seriously. I’d die of a dehydration because I cried all day! Don’t temp me! I’ll do it! Gaahhh! What I become a loser???? ….my life is over… 

I think the best way to remember something is to simply take a picture. Personally, everything about pictures. I love how they capture a moment. I love taking pictures. I love being in pictures. I am a model because of that. I wonder if I mentioned my model status before? Hmm. Anywho, I was looking through some pictures the other day and I found a picture me and my bestfriend Jesse! (that dweeb I keep talking about) it’s actually a horrible picture of both me and him. But it’s the only picture I have both of us. So for that fact I love it. I can’t beileve I completly forgot about it! It’s a picturebof me and him sitting in the backseat of my dad’s truck. We were on our way home from the carnival about an hour away from our town. It was so funny that day, we were on some stupid baby ride and Jesse gets the “smartest” idea he said. The ride was going really slow. So we wanted to freak everyone out waiting in line to get on. So his smart ass starts screaming like a little school girl. It wad actually really funny. I had to get in on the gag. I started screaming too. At the top of our lungs was us two screaming. I felt super bad when the little girl a cart in front of us started crying.  it wad funny though. She really wanted to get off. Well anyway, when the ride was over most of the prople in line to get on next were just staring at us. It was sook funny. When they go on they ere expectig this super fast superly amazing ride. Haha. It totally wasn’t! …perfect day… That was of those days that nothing went wrong. And those days are rare for me. I would give my left nut for that day again. 

Gahh!!! Today was crazy!!! My dog had babies!! WTF? How the hell was I suppost to know she was having babies?? I was just casually chillin’ when I hear a little cry from what I thought was a bird dying or something in my garage. But no. It was my boxer giving birth. I saw the whole thing. It was nasty. I’m so glad I don’t have a vagina. Ouch. 

Have you ever what your purpose is? I’ve been thinking about my purpose a lot lately. I used to think my purpose was to make other people happy; but how am I suppost make others happy when I’m not happy myself. Right now I’m really lonely. I was in my garage playing RockBand™ by myself. Who does that? Bands have more then one person in them. That’s why they’re called a ‘band’. I miss Jesse.. Have you ever had a best friend who is so perfect to be your best friend you never want them to leave your life? Well in a perfect world they don’t; but in this world they do. Last summer I lost my besterest friend ever. We liked everything the same. He was very hansome. He was supper funny. Tall. Smart. Crazy. I loved him. CORRECTION! I love him. I still love him. And for me to say I love a dude is actually saying a lot. I think of what my life would be with him still here. Let tell you…much better!! Way better! But I missed up. And can’t talk to him anymore. I’ll tell you why later. I just want to see him again. I’d give my dick to see him again…okay maybe I don’t miss him that much. But I do miss him. And I know what you’re think right now, just find a replace for him. Well first, I tried. Second, I’m really picky. Some people get on my nervs easy. So just anybody won’t cut it. I did find a possible one though. The only problem with him is that he’s not on my popularity level. Haha. I know it doesn’t make any sence for me to be popular and lonely, but trust me, I mange to do so. For me to have a new best friend I need to find someone who: • I have a class with. For some weird reason i need to see my bestfriend everyday. If I don’t I obivously get lonely. • is easy to get along with. I everyone can get along with him then I why should I? • is funny! If you can make me laugh then forget it. • has a penis. I think have a girl bestfriend weird. Well fr me is. I want a guy bestfriend so we can pick up chicks together. You can do that vagina owners huh? Didn’t think so! • has something in common we. If we don’t have anything in common then what the fuck do you expect us to talk about? Hopefully we’d at least both eat pussy in our spare time. Haha. Jk.  • has spare time to hang oit with me. If there is no time to hang out then what am I expected to do on the weekend? Play RockBand™ by myself? ….I think I’m starting to get my hopes up for no reason. I do actually find a new bestfriend I’ll let you know. 

Whoa. Today was such an odd day. The weather was great though. I enjoyed being able to swing in the morning without freezing my ass off. Felt nice. I rented FAME today. Watched it. It was kinda draggy. But by the end I really liked it. Makes me wanna follow my dreams and stuff you know? I already started to follow them last summer. I’m signed to a talent agency! But the whole time I’ve been with them I’ve only had one photo shoot. Which I can’t complain about. That’s one more photo school then anyone at my school. I like not to brag about it. Or talk about it at all for that matter. I like to stay modest. Not to many people know at my school. Only a select few. I’m really happy I was accepted into it. Hundereds of kids audtion but only about 10 teenagers got accepted. I felt lucky. It makes me kinda mad though. I’m fifteen. But my agent put me into the mens section of the website. So now when you go to my offical webpage you think I’m twenty or something. She said that the mens section gets looked at more. But that’s probably because gay fags are jacking off to my pictures. Which now makes me want to vomit…

Wow. So today was quite fun!! I had to go to school today. Finally out of the house! Whoo-hoo! Saw some of my buddies. Most of them didt have to come today. The bus was a lot quiter then I expected. Only a few kids had to come today I finally got to sit by myself, instead of having to sit the smelly band kids! They smell like cat pee and cheeto’s…odd I know. Anywho, i had a biology exam today. I was expecting not to know any of the answers, but I actually knew most of them! (yay me!) it wasn’t easy but it wasn’t hard. I find out what I got tomorrow. Hopefully something good. Who knows? Also tomorrow I have a civics exam. I think that test is gonna be the hardest one! I honestly know nothing about the law. Which is lame because I want to be a judge! :P anywho, I hope I do well there too. After school I had to clean the whole house!! Which is lezbo because I never clean. Why I did it I don’t know. We had my mom’s friends from work come over which put the clean house to good use. I was really happy they came today. One of them has a super sexy daughter! So you know I was all over her. She was older then me. Thus, her not being interested. Which sucks cuz she’s super hott!! Grr. Pretty girls.. Evil. Anywho, we played rockband all night and I found out i’m actually not a half bad singer. But Thats what all bad singers say. :P